No matter how much effort I put in he will always deny it and rebel.
No matter what I say, he will never listen, never accept the fact that he needs improvement.
Now, I'm tired, I decided to let go.
I said doesn't matter anymore even if you are still the immature boy.
Doesn't matter even if you still want to enjoy your so called happy college life. Maybe happy life with highschool friends?
If this is your choice to keep playing with those friends and not being serious in your work and changing your attitude, I will not comment anymore, I will watch you drown that's it.
You can deny, you can rebel. Why can't I?
Yes I posted stuffs about you, but did I backstab you? No.
I dare to write, and then I dare to say it out loud in front of you, in front of everyone.
Not because I'm prideless, but because I'm more prideful than you.
The worst part of you, the worst failure in your whole life is not be able to speak honestly.
I hate it a lot until I can burst out my tears whenever I thought of that coward face.
Why dare to write but not say it out loud in front of me?!
If you can ever say a truth to me I will respect and look you in another way, too bad you did not.
You coward. Sissy.
Since the day we met you are always like this, fake.
Hard to express yourself? Never dare to say I love you never dare to show your anger!
Wanna stand and look from my point of view?
You are torturing my life. You think you suffer? But not as suffer as me because I have a people who kept backstabbing me even though I knew it but he will never admit!
When I need your love and caring you never say it out to comfort me. Actions? Yes you cared in another way, but you never know what I need ain't it. Just a few words, but for so long you NEVER did for me.
How do I feel, how upset am I. Did you even care?!
For such a long period I've been wondering what are you thinking and whatever, but?
You only cared about your own feeling isn't it.
When you feel pressured you say you're suffering WHAT ABOUT ME?
For so long I never say I'm suffering or show the black face.
I kept keeping it down to my heart and I outburst whenever you are too over.
Why do I have to pat your head when I see your sorry face but you can never come to me and hug me when I'm feeling so down?!
Am I wrong like this? Even if I shouted in phone you still not going to say a word?!
I'm seriously tired.
These makes me cry a lot and I don't want to cry anymore.
I will end it. END IT.
Don't regret, maybe you will never regret. Because I know you will never reflect yourself and really accept people's critiques. You will continue your life like a dog barking around at the street to random people - no one at the age of 18 should act like that. For fun? Yes fun, but your public image is ruined. And shame on you.
Do not let egoness cover your own eyes. Release yourself and look carefully at the worst side of yours. If you never change, people around you will be the one suffer. Think of your parents, and your future. I will be your greatest lesson, as a repay for whatever you did for me. Since I suck that much like what you described, I will live my life as a bitch now, say whatever you like stupid or idiot or what, I like death so what.
Frankly advice - People like you will end up die alone. I hope you can keep the same people as your only friends until you die. Not much in TOA remember your existence, wish you luck. I will be the only one who lend you hand very quickly but you fucked it up, SO DO I, I give up my WHOLE LIFE. I guess you think your life is much precious than mine too.
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